Man, I really feel for you. I am at the other end of the meat grinder, and am fortunate enough to have choices.
The industry is crazy competitive, right now. This is because of all the money to be made.
This has been both a blessing, and a curse.
One of the big reasons that I am not in a hurry to shack up with some company, is that it can easily make a joy into a horror show.
I would suggest that you learn discipline and structure, just on principle (since the industry doesn’t seem to value it). At least, you will be happy with the work you do, and that is worth more than you can imagine.
The industry is crazy competitive, right now. This is because of all the money to be made.
This has been both a blessing, and a curse.
One of the big reasons that I am not in a hurry to shack up with some company, is that it can easily make a joy into a horror show.
I would suggest that you learn discipline and structure, just on principle (since the industry doesn’t seem to value it). At least, you will be happy with the work you do, and that is worth more than you can imagine.