Possibly related prior discussions, some of which include some comments of mine at my site where I try to discuss life perspective etc etc. Note that this is an attempt at collecting useful comments that could relate, NOT at an insinuation that the OP is lazy, a procrastinator, or other. But some comments were good, like finding balance, direction, etc.
(And I have, actually, put a lot at my web site (linked in my profile; hopefully skimmable for the parts that one finds helpful) that I think are relevant. Edit: like, for finding a family-like community almost wherever you go, search this page for "no one has to be alone": http://lukecall.net/e-9223372036854581716.html .)
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=22919697 ("ask hn: how do i overcome mental laziness?")
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=22124489 ("Procrastination is about managing emotions, not time (bbc.com")
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=22096571 ("Ask HN: I don't want to be a worker any more I want to be a professional")
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=20930439 ("how do you keep your programming motivation up?")
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=18903886 "Ask HN: How do you motivate yourself to keep working on a project? "
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=19777976 "ask hn: how do you stay disciplined in the long run?"
(And I have, actually, put a lot at my web site (linked in my profile; hopefully skimmable for the parts that one finds helpful) that I think are relevant. Edit: like, for finding a family-like community almost wherever you go, search this page for "no one has to be alone": http://lukecall.net/e-9223372036854581716.html .)
For what it may be worth.